Oh yeah I think it was a translation issue. Translators have trouble with conjugation and synonyms. But the result is the same.

Went from drunk to sober (wasted my beer) and woke up with my head feeling like a spike had been driven through it. 4/10

The first one you learned or became fluent in. For example, it’s often English for USA people or Spanish for Spanish people, or Japanese for Japanese people

Often also called mother tongue or primary language.

Otherwise, it can be the one you are most comfortable with or default to.

It’s hard enough to express this in a first language

Even then it’s safer than playing with rocks it seems.

It’s hell. But at least you can dial boot the damn thing.

You accomplish years and years of intense, highly productive and rewarding work then this happens. It’s not about puckering up. Be curious. People have stated things like “depression” and “executive dysfunction”. You can look these up, there are plenty of resources.