Looks like I picked the wrong day to quit Ritalin! Not that it matters, 99% of us are getting fucked to some depth. Disadvantaged people first, then minorities and women, as is custom.

I live in a very white area and I’m not white. I’m telling people close to me I’m in fight or flight constantly. They tell me states or the supreme Court (wtf) will block trump, or I’m not an immigrant so I don’t have to worry, or I’m somehow safer being surrounded by white people even though I stick out like a sore thumb. They feel safe and have bullshit hope and belief and can somehow forget how entirely subjugated black people have been through the entire hisory of America. I’m so fucking tired I don’t even care some days. Can’t wait to be asked what I’m thankful for this holiday.

I feel the same way. Everyone has this blind belief that courts and laws are going to mean something to a group of people that laws don’t apply to. Nothing is being dragged out or tied up except our bodies.

YES! Get to the city any way you can. If you don’t have any money see if you have something to trade or sell. Go to a homeless shelter, some have case workers who can help you. Some cities have shelters just for victims of abuse where they make sure your identity is hidden and they can help you get setup with housing and other assistance. You’ll likely have more options since you’re disabled. Your family is less likely to go to a city to find you. You deserve way better and I hope you find peace.