Not someone I know, but myself. I’m desperate for some kind of connection, and I don’t understand a lot of things that are happening to me. It’s like the sensitivity has been dialed up to maximum levels. I’ve been taking things personally that really shouldn’t bother me. It could be due to sleep deprivation, but I’m weary of assigning a cause to things I don’t fully understand. I just notice it happens on days when I don’t get enough sleep, or I exert myself too much the day before. There’s definitely a cause that I feel is external, but I also need to take responsibility for allowing it to continue. I could have gone to bed earlier last night, but I didn’t, and I really felt it this morning.
I’m sorry to hear about the problems with your wife. I’m sort of in the same boat when it comes to not really feeling connected this year. It’s not a holiday that I feel is important, and I’m not really thrilled about the whole consumerism thing anyway.
That said, I still plan on giving a gift to one special person. The gift itself isn’t important, I think, but I would feel terrible for not taking part in it this year. I’ve avoided the holiday for years, and it really bothers me. I’ve been looking forward to this for a couple of months. It’s not about the gift, though. I’m just happy to have someone special in my life now.
I’ll bring it up with them after the holiday, but I think we’re both on the same page. I think next year we won’t celebrate it.